22: Missing people

Is it me or if you don't scream at people, they don't give two shits? In the past 2 months only... 3 out of 7 of my "friends" has actually talked to me or seen me on a regular basis. And Im not saying everyday, but yano, once a week atleast?
I honestly want to just say "Fuck it. I'll just keep Jessy." But then I feel guilty for even considering blowing these people off if they talk to me... I have no idea what to do... I'm stuck at home all the time. Thank god college is starting soon and I'm getting a job soon. But there's only so much time you can just sit and go "Oh, I'm sure they're just busy..." When they've said they can't see you the day before you've arranged to see them. Twice.
When will I actually be counted as someone who's important?

Saph

21: and I was sleeping so well

So, i've suffered from nightmares because of past experiences, for about... 3 years now I guess. And I thought I was getting better, what with my last therapy session and the docs telling me I'm all healthy now. But no. I went to bed at 5am last night and I'm still awake again at 3.30 with no tiredness as of yet. And every night for the past week iv woken up at some godforsaken time scared shitless and I have to force myself back asleep...
I honestly thought I was getting better at sleeping...
Sleep tight tonight, Saph

20: college student and all that

So I just spent 4 hours enrolling into college :) I'm no officially a student at an art college ^^
Saw 2 people I knew, and let's just say that I will never forget their faces at seeing me there haha. Apparently they forgot they were going to aamw college as me. What's even funnier is that, one of them used to be my best friend then decided to ditch me for my ex boyfriend and she couldn't even look me in the face. The other one missed me at prom and the blush on his face when I went ansia cat next to him was one of then funniest things! He's a complete dork but he entertained me for a vita atleast.

So. I'm a student now. 2 years till I'm in America studying psychology. Can't wait :)

Laters, Saph

19: My art #1

It's just a doodle and I really can't do hands, but its pretty decent ^^

Laters, Saph

18: my dogs...

So I have 2 dogs. One is a 5 year old pure breed German shepherd. And the other is... A 11 year old mutt, a border collie crossed with a spring a spaniel.

You can see the difference. Bahah
Laters, Saph

17: old passions

I used to iceskate and I was bloody good at it, and I've just started up again and, I honestly couldn't be happier. Yes, I'm now stuck on a better diet, yes, its tiring, and yes, I will have to pay for it myself. But it feels worth it when I feel the ice underneath my skates... It's perfect. And I can't wait to go practice again tomorrow.

Laters, Saph

16: lateness

So my phone was being stupid and wouldnt let me upload three last two posts. They were days ago! So sorry!
Anyway, I've died my hair (i look like rogue from xmen which I've wanted to since I was in year 7), had a makeover and am now wearing other clothes, and by god am I happier :)

Small update, laters, Saph

14: roadtrip through Spain

So slightly crazy and grouchy but other than that all is good ^^ I've been sleeping a lot, but when I'm awake stunning scenery. Like. Really stunning.

Laters, Saph

15: continuation of roadtrip but through France!

Woo for the frogs. Nan's already flipped some off for being pillocks but their entertaining themselves. Everytime my music lulls for a bit, I hear them giggling over something, which is nice to hear! Their McDonald's tastes shittier than ours, just saying. But again. Prettyfullness. It's keeping me entertained at least ^^
Only 12 hours left...
Laters, Saph